The Tower: Being Humbled

The Tower

Yep, long time no see. As regular followers would know my Tarot card this year is The Tower. I’ve been forced to put many things on hold to care for a close family member who has a serious health condition. The good news is she finally has the right diagnosis, the right treatment and is sloooooooowly improving, which is awesome. The bad news (for me at least) is that I won’t be able to start publishing my Tarot series until next year.

I was discussing this the other day with one of my best friends. We met when we studied Tarot together over twenty years ago. As far as I’m concerned she’s always been way more talented at reading the cards than me but I’ve worked with them more.

She was like, ‘Duh! You’re more likely to publish under The Star anyway because that card represents manifesting your heart’s desire.’

And I was all ‘No way. The Tower is the lightning strike representing publication.’

I was determined to publish my first e-book just before Christmas this year which is a significant date for me for personal reasons I won’t go into here.

Anyhoo, I finally emailed someone last night to get my manuscript edited – something I’ve been putting off for 6 months. She replied back straight away, a good sign, and sounds lovely, but the kicker is she won’t be able to do it until December – too late for me to get the manuscript ready for publication this year. So that prospect seems dead in the water.

Interestingly, the renovations I was expecting to do under The Tower card ain’t gonna happen till next year either.

So I’ve been reflecting on this fact today, googling The Star and The Tower, trying to work out what this means in terms of The Tower card. And I’m wondering if my friend is right. Maybe next year is when I manifest my heart’s desire: publish a book, finally get to live in a home that is comfortable instead of a dump.

What then does The Tower mean for me?

Last time I had this as my card-of-the-year painful circumstances forced me to truly believe for the first time in my life that people did care about me. What are these circumstances, in which caring for my family is preventing me from publication, asking me to accept?

The thing is I’ve always resented the time my children take up. I felt like they stopped me from fulfilling my dream of becoming a full-time writer. Petty I know. And of course untrue. Plenty of peeps with nippers biting at their heels manage to publish. I could acknowledge that my kids helped me become more grounded, enabling me to write more, but no more. So maybe I needed this point driven home? It’s like The Tower card this year is one giant lesson in showing how much egg I have on my face. That I should never have blamed my kids for my shortcomings – even secretly.

The problem with writing a Tarot blog is there’s no place to hide. Sooner or later you’re going to be forced to confess your worst flaws and most shameful secrets. So there you have it – I’m being well and truly humbled this year and no doubt deservedly so.

Seven Of Wands: Stand Up And Be Heard!

7 Wands

Love this. I did a Tarot reading online today and got the Seven Of Wands. It said: Clear communication is vital. Stand up and be heard.

That message fits in so well with this card. Look at the man with the wand in his hand battling away there. He’s trying to say something. Trying to be heard amongst the rabble.  You can see that he’s facing a great deal of opposition. It’s never easy to get your message across when it differs from what others say or believe. But wands cards demand you be brave.

If you get the Seven Of Wands in a reading it could be a sign that you need to speak up for yourself. In which case you should absolutely go for it. Good luck!

The Tarot Of Digital Binging

I spend way too much time on the ol’ internet. So I thought I’d investigate the Tarot of Digital Binging…

Page Of Swords R

Page Of Swords Reversed: Messages written in haste. (Let’s face it, a lot of stuff on the net is not very well thought through.)

8 Wands

Eight Of Wands: Message coming in quickly.

The Empress R

The Empress Reversed: Indulgence. Overdosing on something you enjoy.

Five Of Swords + The Devil: Trolling. Not all digital binging is good.

8 Pentacles R

Eight Of Pentacles Reversed: Processing things by rote. I’m as guilty of overpressing Like on Facebook as the next person.

Any more you’d like to add?

The Hierophant Reversed: Social Pressure

Hierophant R

The Hierophant. He’s the priest, the pope and the high priestess. But also the king, the queen, the police, the lawyer, the teacher, every social commentator you come across. He’s your Uncle Jim keeping you cornered at some family function raving on about his right wing/left wing/anarchist cause. Me on this blog. The school crossing lady making you check both ways for oncoming cars. Your ballet/black belt/swimming coach. A scout leader. All those shopkeepers you came across as a child who reminded you to use your manners. Every poet and writer and singer and movie star whose words you’ve looked to for guidance. Your psychiatrist. Psychologist. Therapist. Doctor. Basically, anyone trying to teach you something about the world. Right or wrong as they may be.

Reversed, he can be those peeps putting you under pressure. To follow the rules, obey the law, do the ‘right’ thing, stick to the status quo, not rock the boat, etc etc etc. He can be the policeman beating the protestor on the street with a baton. The army imposing martial law. Women making snide comments about another’s behavior. Mother-in-laws from hell criticising their son’s bride. Being forced to have an abortion or give a child up for adoption. Feeling pressured to cook the roast a certain way by your husband/mother/friends.

We’ve all been on the wrong side of this card. And it hurts.

Can you think of any other examples?

Nine Of Wands Reversed: Being Paranoid

9 Wands R

Nine Of Wands: A man stands holding onto a wand looking ready for battle. He’s primed and prepped to defend his territory. The bandage around his head suggests he’s experienced heavy fighting. The line of wands at his rear are the skills he’s drawn on to survive.

Reversed, the man is drawing on this energy in a dysfunctional way. He’s on guard. Defensive. Fired up for no reason. Prepared for a fight without any provocation. Paranoid.

I would expect this card to come up on a regular basis for survivors. Those who’ve experienced a great deal of trauma in their lives. It can be hard when you’ve lived through a lot of battles to believe you don’t need to fight anymore.

Anyone like to share their experiences with this card?

Saturday Night Fight Club: The Hierophant Vs The Lovers

The Hierophant

The Hierophant: A man sits on a throne holding a sceptre in one hand and giving some kind of sign with his other. He is dressed in ceremonial robes and wears a crown on his head. Two men kneel at his feet looking subservient.

The Hierophant symbolises authority figures in our society such as priests, kings and presidents but also teachers, policemen and lawyers. This card represents the lessons taught us by society.


The Lovers

The Lovers: A naked man and woman. The epitome of love. Sexual love. Relationship. Intimacy. Funnily enough though, while the man’s looking at the woman she’s not staring back at him but at the angel in the heavens above.

This card represents choice. Who we choose to be in a relationship with. What we choose to focus on. What temptations we choose to succumb to and what we resist.

The Lovers card follows the Hierophant in Life Lessons Tarot (aka the Major Arcana). First we learn what society expects of us and then we choose which of those expectations we are going to adhere to. You can see this process being played out during childhood. Primary school children like rules and follow them without question. Teenagers experiment, trying different life experiences regardless of whether they’re legal or not.

The Hierophant Vs The Lovers.

Society Expectation Vs Individual Preference.

Tradition Vs Freedom Of Choice.

Which of these cards speaks most to you?

Wheel Of Fortune Reversed: Caught In The Media Spin Cycle

Wheel Of Fortune R

The Wheel Of Fortune represents the passing of time, the cycles of life, the ups and downs we go through. Reversed it can signify a cycle out of whack. On speed. Crazed. This is a card for our times if ever there was one. We’re all caught in the 24/7 media spin cycle. Beit conveyed the old fashioned way via television and print or spewed out of the internet on blogs, Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, whatev.

So much information, so little real news.

Too many molehills. Too few actual mountains.

Peeps jumped on the actress Emma Thompson this week when she suggested women can benefit from taking a year off work to spend time with their children. Oh, the uproar this caused. Oh, the outrage that she should dare suggest such a thing when most mothers can’t afford such a luxury. Seriously, what the? She was talking in the context of her own personal situation as an actress who is away from home for long periods. It was an off-the-cuff remark. But from the reaction you’d have thought she was making it law.

Here in my hometown others are jumping up and down at the moment because a teenage girl in a special education program had her armpits shaved at school. As did the rest of the girls in her class. Practical skills like shaving are a normal part of special education programs and parents were informed in advance. Yet you’d think the child had been physically assaulted from the response her parent’s complaint about this has generated.

Meanwhile profound events become just another item squeezed in between grumpy cats and celebrity tidbits. Climate change. Innocents slaughtered with guns yet again in America. Hundreds of girls kidnapped from a school in Nigeria. Probably raped. A woman bludgeoned to death in Pakistan by her own family for not marrying the man of their choice.

The non-stop avalanche of news mutes our ability to respond appropriately. We struggle to catch our breath. Feel overwhelmed by information. Have already moved onto the next thing.

The lesson of the Wheel Of Fortune card is that a well-lived life is yin and yang. It needs to have slow periods as well as busy ones. Quiet contemplation as well as determined action. And embracing this reality is part of our journey to wisdom. In a non-stop news cycle there is no opportunity for stepping back and seeing the bigger picture, for putting things in perspective. And we are all the losers as a result.

Do you ever find yourself sucked into the internet?