Well, I thought last year was bad but I ain’t never had a year like this one. Whereas last year when my Tarot Card Of The Year was The Devil I felt under massive pressure, this year in The Tower everything Continue reading
Wow! I’m beginning to think The Tower card is ruled by Pluto/Scorpio. Talk about transforming my life – and the year has only just begun. (For those who may not have read previous posts, The Tower is my Tarot card-of-the-year.)
Well this happened. My computer broke. I knocked over a glass of water near my laptop. It has a protective cover and didn’t look like it got too wet but afterwards refused to turn on. Interesting. I’d finally sat down to work on my novel for the first time these hols. I guess the universe doesn’t want me to write right now. Of course my laptop requires a major part to be replaced and doubly of course I have to fill in reams of paperwork in triplicate before I can get the blasted thing fixed. The universe wants me to give up my internet addiction as well apparently, lol.
So I’ve been getting by with my iPhone and reading novels at night but have still felt tres` bored. My daughter has just lent me her laptop which definitely fills her description of ‘a heap of shit’ but it’s something. I feel like I’m connected to the world again, albeit by a very thin thread.
Accidents and breakdowns, this is totally Tower card territory. My Tarot card-of-the-year is sure living up to expectation (actually, it’s way worse than I remembered, darn it.) How are you going with your year card?
Ever since New Year’s I’ve been running around like a maniac. Instead of dealing with situations calmly I’ve been freaking out. It’s so stuuuuuuuupid of me.
Some of my problems are just in my head. Like, for example, I’ve been dreaming about school a lot these holidays. Bad teacher dreams. Where the class is out of control or where I’m embarrassing myself in front of colleagues. At the root of these dreams is a fear I won’t cut it as a classroom teacher. I’ve been teaching successfully for 15 years but this will be my first time solo in a classroom (I used to teach art and Italian as a specialist subject). My anxiety is ridiculous of course. I love my job and love the kids which I’ve always believed to be the magic formula to be a good teacher. But fear isn’t reasonable, is it? The problem is I’m an introvert. The idea of thirty pairs of eyes turned my way, of thirty pairs of ears hanging on my every word, scares the shit out of me. As a result I’ve been madly googling teacher websites, sometimes all night long. Not sane at all. (Did I mention this card is associated with mental health issues???)
Other problems are real and scary. But rushing around in a blind panic doesn’t help me deal with them one jot. It’s certainly not a functional way to use the experience of The Tower card. You’re meant to be inspired by the bolts of lightning that shock your system into change your approach to situations, not going all freaky-la-la on them. So I’m forcing myself to stick to a schedule now. Working through tasks one-by-one. Swallowing my panic. Trying to be the rock instead of the collapsing tower in the picture.
OMG. How am I going to cope with a whole year of this energy? Might have to take up yoga again or meditation.
How do you deal with crisis?
I promised a lovely lady on my Facebook page ages ago that I’d republish all my medical Tarot blogs. Here’s one I found. Sorry it took so long…
I’ve had way more experience of mental health issues in the last few years than I ever wanted to so I thought it might be time to tackle the Tarot of Mental Illness in more depth. Unsurprisingly the cards involved include those in the last section of Life Lessons Tarot (aka the Major Arcana). Note: These cards might turn up reversed in a reading about mental illness.
The Devil: Living in denial. An inability to face reality. Losing yourself in drugs. Denial that you have a mental illness. Continue reading
I plan a post on the Tarot of The Beauty Pageant Winner and by an amazing coincidence the winner of Miss America is crowned at the same time. I must have been picking up the vibes in the air somehow. More importantly, I finally have a clear enough head to write a post two days in a row, whoo-hoo, now that really is something worth celebrating. Let’s get stuck into it shall we?
I was pondering the trifecta today of the Wheel Of Fortune, Justice and Hanged Man cards with a friend. These three cards are found in the middle of Life Lessons Tarot (aka the Major Arcana), the dead-set heavyweight players of the Tarot deck.
We were discussing the ramifications of a big move she made after much consideration to another town when she had Justice as her Tarot-card-of-the-year i.e. Now in her Hanged Man year she’s waiting around trying to get a job and regretting moving at all.
It suddenly struck me Continue reading